One Year Ago…

One year ago, today, I cradled your head in my lap.

Tears rolled down my face.

I let my nose breathe in your scent one final time.

I looked at Ryan.

Tears rolled down his face too.

I looked at the vet.

“I can give you some more time,” she said.

“We just want his pain to be over,” I cried.

She pushed the plunger.

His breathing slowed.

“I’m so sorry,” I whispered over and over into his ear, as I buried my face into his fur.

His breathing stopped.

He was gone.

I laid next to his body until it grew cold.

Then I slipped off his collar, and held it so tightly.

Ryan helped me off the floor, and together we exited the office, without my special friend.

God, I thank you for giving me Chili Dawg.

The video my husband made me for Christmas.

8 thoughts on “One Year Ago…”

  1. What a beautiful tribute and video. I’m so sorry for your loss… I’ve always heard good dogs never really leave you, they are there when you call for them and frolic in your heart.

    Sending hugs….


  2. Oh Chili, I can’t believe it’s been a whole year already. Wow.

    I know you are still with your pack in spirit, and always will be. I can fell the love in your Mom’s beautiful poem.

    We miss you too my friend. xoxo

  3. Chili, your spirit will live on with your parents and within this community. You continue to inspire and we continue to love you because as a wise, wise woman once said “love never ends.” Peace to your pack on this difficult day.

  4. What a great photo tribute to the love beautiful Chili Dawg added to your family. Dogs are amazing, Tripawds especially so.

    Darcy & Bart

  5. Oh Chili, I hope – no, I know – that you can still feel the love your family has for you and how much they miss you. It is hard to believe it is one year!

    Your Dad did a beautiful job making that video for your Mom. I’m sure there has been countless tissues used today when everyone watched it. Your Mom’s poem is so heartfelt, too.

    It is true…the love never ends.

    PS – Lola says Hi

  6. Oh, what a lovely poem and video. Definitely tears here! He is such a beautiful boy. We are thinking of you and Chili today.

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